DAMN!
They SAY you are not supposed to internalize things. BECAUSE, they say, THINGS will only sit and get WORSE if you internalize them.
It's BECAUSE when you keep things inside yourself, there is nothing to benchmark them against, so TO YOU, they become all-encompassing and intense, because you are the only one to deal with them, and you have NO point of reference. If you feel a certain way, and you think about it all the time, then it eventually just SWALLOWS YOU UP, and whether it WAS originally a particularly strong feeling or not, it WILL BECOME SO, because you've plugged it up for so long.
WELL. When I'm done using ALL CAPS in that obnoxious manner that people do to emphasize things, I will tell you all about this. I REALLY need to talk to this girl, but I keep blowing it off - obviously, getting "cold feet", as it were, and rationalizing to myself why this is not the time.
This is hard for me because I'm not used to being nervous. I have not been nervous in years. I have not been nervous re: girls for a long time, either. In fact, looking back on how I act basically every day, it would be easy for someone to say that I flirt with every girl I see - and maybe I do, although this is certainly not conscious on my part if it is the case.
So, the upshot of it all is this: at the next opportunity, I am going to seize the day. There simply is no other choice. It's been good to get this all out there; I feel much better.
WHAT HAPPENS TO A DREAM DEFERRED?
You never get a chance with her, that's what.
They SAY you are not supposed to internalize things. BECAUSE, they say, THINGS will only sit and get WORSE if you internalize them.
It's BECAUSE when you keep things inside yourself, there is nothing to benchmark them against, so TO YOU, they become all-encompassing and intense, because you are the only one to deal with them, and you have NO point of reference. If you feel a certain way, and you think about it all the time, then it eventually just SWALLOWS YOU UP, and whether it WAS originally a particularly strong feeling or not, it WILL BECOME SO, because you've plugged it up for so long.
WELL. When I'm done using ALL CAPS in that obnoxious manner that people do to emphasize things, I will tell you all about this. I REALLY need to talk to this girl, but I keep blowing it off - obviously, getting "cold feet", as it were, and rationalizing to myself why this is not the time.
This is hard for me because I'm not used to being nervous. I have not been nervous in years. I have not been nervous re: girls for a long time, either. In fact, looking back on how I act basically every day, it would be easy for someone to say that I flirt with every girl I see - and maybe I do, although this is certainly not conscious on my part if it is the case.
So, the upshot of it all is this: at the next opportunity, I am going to seize the day. There simply is no other choice. It's been good to get this all out there; I feel much better.
WHAT HAPPENS TO A DREAM DEFERRED?
You never get a chance with her, that's what.
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